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version 2.0 (the original just didn’t cut it anymore)

I started writing when I was 7. Writing and designing fashion. Somewhere along the way, I dropped the design bit and continued penning my thoughts. I thought I’d be the next Tolkien or Blyton or Christie, I truly did. But writing for others is very different from writing for oneself from the heart. It was stifling and frustrating, to say the least, but as a single mother, it was what fed us.

The problem with being commissioned to develop pieces for other people, in their voices, for over 15 years, is that it led to my losing mine. I could no longer write. I simply could not hold onto a single genuine thought. Everything I produced was, well, fluffy. Not me, not my thoughts, not my voice. I abandoned all pretense in attempting to write and moved on. I was convinced it was simply not meant to be.

A little while back few weeks ago (13th September 2014, to be precise), a startling realisation came out of nowhere – I had to write again. I simply had to, in order to feel that I had (finally) accomplished something worthwhile. That I myself was worth something. I can’t explain it.

I started blogging again. I joined a community of like-minded journal-keepers and inserted myself into a roomful of writers. I made time for reading (hello there, old friends) and started playing catch-up with news-related websites.  I wrote.

I’ve never been happier.

I’ve never ever felt more inspired to write.

And I’m now having so much fun with my two loves, writing and playing dress up.  Something which I didn’t think would ever happen again.

I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN

(in the “real” world, I conceptualise and execute PR & Branding strategies, and I write too)

21 Comments

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  2. Dearest Narcissista ~ That is the most lovely thing anyone’s said to me. The sheer fact you get it, that this isn’t your typical nubile blog, is brilliant, and that you appreciate my humour with the cast makes me smile🙂 thank you so very much. Happy Christmas xo Sheela xo

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  3. Debra says

    From one Sarawakian to another in the WWW, I’m glad I found your blog. I enjoyed reading your blogs🙂

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    • Thanks very much, Debra. I have to say that I owe whomever invented the blog, a ginormous pat on the back. It’s such an amazing outlet to use in expressing oneself.

      xo Sheela xo

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  4. theenglishauthoress says

    Written from the heart and how very inspiring. This is what life is all about. It’s wonderful that you are doing what you love x

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  5. mtsedwards says

    You write AND you’re gorgeous to boot?! Forget my being your style hero – you’re just my all-around hero!

    I’m currently trying to juggle my style blogging schedule with my work in progress, which is a 300+ page behemoth and is in no way even close to being complete. Good thing the fantasy genre likes ’em long, eh?

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  6. I got into blogging for a very similar reason. I’ve always enjoyed writing too and went to college to study journalism. However since graduation six years ago, I decided to work in the non-profit world. While I love that, I needed an outlet. Blogging is perfect because you are your own boss. I love it!

    Nina
    aworldofdresses.com

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  7. I’m having a blast digging back through your archives and reading your old posts. I love your style, lady. xx

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  8. I thoroughly enjoyed the several posts I browsed through and will definitely keep track of your future posts through Pinterest. I liked your irreverant tone and “what happened to individuality” attitude. Sounds like you deal with quite a bit of pain and medications on a daily basis as I do. My best wishes with all that. Hey, once I got on the correct dosage for my thyroid, I lost about 30 lbs. The pain meds still keep me about 30 lbs over my ideal weight, but it’s better than it was.
    Yes, you can work flowers into your outfit on a clutch. Or you can use a piece of jewelry. Or a pair of shoes. Do it any way it feels best to you. I won’t send you to my blog for that post of how to do flowers. I think you can figure it out for yourself! You obviously have an excellent mind. I wish you good luck with your writing. I wish I had “stories” in my head; I would love to write.
    Judi at Blue Cat Review http://www.bluecatreview.us

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  9. Very timely for me to read your blog. Thanks for your thoughts. It is awesome to hear and inspiring to read. Are we waiting for news about blockbuster book sales and film rights and retweets by Reece Witherspoon? I am so excited for you!!

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